Let the wrong begin

Matt comes home tonight and was discussing his work as per usual. It is all sorts of cool having a newsman in the family. Anyhow, he mentioned that the term 'homosexual' is no longer to be used in referring to those who favor their own gender. Now you are to use gay because homosexual has become a negative term.

Where the hell was I during all of this? When I was a teenager and coming out of the closet homosexual was the proper term and perfectly all right. Gay was used sometimes but had a few negative connotations so it wasn't always used. Plus gay could stand for either male or female homosexuals yet nowadays if I call a lesbian a gay people get weird. Why is homosexual a bad term? To me it is a descriptive, non-pejorative word that tells you exactly what to expect. In my crap Latin homo=same sexual=fucking obvious. Why is homosexual a not so good term? I figure after they get sick of the term gay they are going to go back to faggot or butt buddies. Oh wait we can't use butt buddies because then the fish snorters will get upset. How about the fish snorting butt buddies or would that be for a bisexual? Wait can I say bisexual anymore? Shit I don't think we have another term for bisexual. What about hetrosexual? If I call them straight isn't that being unfair to the gays because straight is kind of like saying normal. Should I call gay people crooked? Wait but that implies...

All I'm saying here folks is what George Carlin said a long time ago in a far more amusing fashion. Call a fucking spade a fucking spade and be done with it. Don't make up a new term for something that really doesn't need one.

Oh and african-american has also gone the way of the dodo. I guess it is okay to call people black now. 'Cause you know it is perfectly okay to describe somebody by the color of their skin... no wait what?!? God I'm getting too old for all this.

I'm tired and bitchy. Welcome to my scream...

( Cut for bitching and possible TMI )

I have decided I hate my breasts.

( Ranting about boob issues )

AGH stupid boobs *pokes them* I hate you even though you are fun.

You know that whole when it can get worse thing, yeah well it just got worse...again.

My car won't start. I just called AAA for a jump. God only knows what's wrong with my car. The battery is new and she has gas so WTF!

*sigh* I know what did it. God I'm dumb in the morning!

Okay so I'm still awake with some hella insomnia so you get to listen to me blather. I just finished watching John Carpenter's Vampires and I would just like to say the damn movie sucked. Sucked so hard and so fast I'd be surprised if John Carpenter still wasn't getting muscle pains in his lips. I know it is just a stupid vampire movie but it annoyed me. Not all of it mind you. Some of it was just good clean blood splattered fun. I love good clean blood splattered fun. Some parts of it were just hot in a completely wrong way. Seeing a man pull his entire arm out of the hole he just shoved through another man's body is oddly arousing. Hmmm I probably shouldn't have shared that little tidbit. Oh well. The vamps had major makeup issues and the like but I expect that. Evidently if you become one of the permanently fanged you lose all ability to understand how much base to put on. Once again these things don't really bother me.

No what bothered me was the very ending. The main dude's best friend, who helps him kill the vampires, got bitten in the line of duty. So of course the buddy is going to turn into a vampire. Main dude is going to let him get a two day start because the buddy has been backing him for two days after being bitten. But before going he has to blather on and on about how he will still track him and his new vampire girlfriend down and kill them. Excuse me but WTF? I'm sorry if one of my friends gets bitten covering my ass that's a get out of staking free card. Besides the fact fuck you, you cock sucking bastard! Go fucking get your genocidal rocks off elsewhere.

Bleh so I could continue the rant but I really should attempt sleep at some point. At least the priest was damned hot. Scruffy white boy, just what the doctor ordered. And he gets extra hot points for being a kick ass priest. Something about a man in uniform. HAHAHA.

LOL First Knight is on now. I can never see this movie with thinking of Ali and the one line she loved in the movie. LOL Oh well bed for me.

Well on a solid I'm Fucked note, SUNY New Paltz (new college) are requiring all sorts of fun documentation I just don't have in order to prove I've been a resident of NY for the past few years. My shit is still mostly packed and I have no idea where the documents I need are or if they even exist anymore. *sighs* I'm going to have to call the lady tomorrow and see if I can give her some other documents. I don't know what exactly but something. Does anyone know if there is some way I can quickly get copies of my old filed taxes?

After sending her 14 pages of information she wants a copy of my 2005 taxes (no idea where that is), my old certificate of residency from Orange County Community College (gotta call the college tomorrow), and some bank documents of which they could only supply me with part of the info. FUCK!

I'm gonna take a break from ransacking my room and my packed shit on Murphy's porch to go drop books at the library and pick up some more. Christ I need to find some way of unpacking more of my things. But i can't figure out where to store them so they don't just become piles of stuff. But maybe piles of stuff wouldn't be so bad. At the very least I could ransack it a little easier.

Today is the suck.

So I went to the midnight madness thing with my friends and family. Here's my first and a bit truncated response.

2 fights I almost got into with people
6 children scared
20 thousand people I wanted to murder
12 people I went with
4 children who got way over tired
3 books purchased
0 books worth reading purchased

Yeah so it was cool and the suck. I managed to scare a bunch of people. I almost kicked the shit out of some punk bitch. He made a comment as I walked passed. (Slytherins suck is what he said.  The look on his face when I stopped and turned around was priceless. Something like "Oh fuck" mixed with "I'm going to die". He said something stupid later and Kibble scared him. I really wanted to go start a fight because I was in a hella bad mood. I also got a "Oh my god" from some kids as I passed them. I was trying to get through and I was saying "excuse me" over and over again. There was a group of boys and one of them said "Move out of the way she'll punch you in the face." So my response was "yes I will. Good boy." Then the other one said "Oh my god." It would have been funny but I was in that hella bad mood.

Anyhow my book responses at some other point.

I can not find anything. God fucking damnit!!

I'm bored so I was going to start designing the HP cake for the kids party next week and I can't find my sketch pad or my fucking pencils. ARGGGGGHHHHH

FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKKKKKK!

You know I really hate when people make little passive-aggressive digs. It always makes me wonder why? It aggravates me, it bothers the people I bitch about it to, and the person doing it is obviously annoyed too. They could come and talk to me about it, but instead they would rather play stupid little games. And then when you call them on their hypocrisy they deny it and say it is you who are the hypocrite. It just gets on my nerves but I guess that was the entire point of the exercise. So good for them, they managed to annoy me. Happy fucking day for the world.

So as most of you know (or will now) I read slash. Actually I read more then slash but slash (boy on boy lovin') is where this little story starts. The snarry games are on right now (that's Snape/Harry for those of you less perverse then myself) and so far they have been kick ass if you go for that kind of thing and guess what - I do. Now my perversions aside I was upset to wander over there today and find out that there was a small, well-controlled, shit fit going on. Seems some people got there panties in a twist about a few of the stories.

Now I know what you are thinking "Well Seo of course they are pissed off! Hello Snape and Harry is fucking gross!" No fair reader that is not why the got pissy. No they got pissy because one author wrote a story about gypsies where she clearly stated it was all for fun and she knew nothing about them and got some gross inaccuracies in the story. I wold just like to say HELLO she said she didn't know anything about the culture. Hellllllloooo is anyone listening?? Good god people get a damned life. The other author used the word squaw like once in the story as far as I can tell and once again had some stereotypical Indian things happen in her story. Am I the only one who did not know that squaw was really fucking offensive. Some are saying as offensive as the word nigger (and fuck you all the word is NIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGERR not the fucking n-word). Honestly, how can a word be offensive as the word nigger if no one knows that? A word is not offensive if the person you are trying to offend doesn't know they should be offended. At that point you just get stared at. I guarantee if I walk outside and call the nearest person squaw they will just stare at me. Where as if I instead went and called them a nigger, regardless of skin color, they will be fucking pissed.

Now on to the bigger picture. This is porn. Gay, man on hot sweaty man, porn. Slash is fucking porn. It may be good porn (and a lot of it is). It may have a plot, lots of character development, and some really cool ideas but when it all boils down slash is porn. Now I like my porn and I could name a few high selling authors that only write porn now *coughlaurellkhamitoncough* but I do not go looking in my porn for the answer to all life as we know it. Now people are being very polite over on the list but damnit I am annoyed anyway. Porn should not be complex and I certainly should not have to wander into a damned argument over whether the term SQUAW if fucking PC or not. Who cares? It is a fucking slash story written for fun and entertainment. Now these poor authors feel like real crap and I don't think they should. It was an honest mistake. I don't get pissed off when I see stereotypical depictions of Japanese or blacks or Italians in slash fic (of which there are a lot of the Italian in Snape fics) because it is fucking fanfiction. It is entertainment. It is NOT meant to be the guiding light in my life, nor should it be. These authors are writing fanfics based on their imaginations and in their free time for us the NON-PAYING LJ consumer. It would behoove you all the stuff a sock in it. If it had been my work I would have told you to do just that and not changed a thing because you have, in fact, over stepped the bounds of propriety for a reader. I understand how you could be offended but send the author a private note next time. Or better yet realize that stereotypes are all based on something. The sooner we admit that there is a reason "niggers" are stereotyped as lazy fuckers, with no jobs, or hopes is the sooner we can get to work on the real problems faced by those of the chocolate skin. Because trust me when I tell you, as someone who has been called a nigger before, it isn't the word that hurts it is the fact that it might be true.

Good god I hate this shit. This abhorrent idiocy is why I try to say the word nigger everyday and why I collect pejorative words. People need to grow up and move on. You wanna stop the "bad words"? Then fucking forget they exist, ignore them, destroy their power by making them nothing more or less then another sound coming out of your body. *sigh* But on the other hand I understand how this doesn't always work. I understand how some words must be used with caution and you can be damned sure if I heard one of the kids saying the word nigger they would get a serious talking to. Why? Because unlike me, a grown adult, they don't understand the fine shades of gray we live our lives by. They don't know where that word comes from and what it can mean; until they do they don't have the right to use it. Just like they don't have the right to use any word they don't understand because they will sound like fucking morons, and I'm not in the business of helping to raise moronic children. But here I am playing right into the hands of those who wish to control language (because that's what PCism is - a form of control). I should encourage the kids to say words like nigger and fuck. I should make sure they do because then they'll just be random sounds right? It doesn't really work that way, though I wish it did.

All this annoyed little post boils down to is this: life is about living and having fun. Read and live and enjoy life don't pick it apart! Sometimes stories aren't nice or pretty. Sometimes authors are human and can say stupid shit without realizing they had offend people. Sometimes it's better to write people in private because by doing it publicly you add gasoline to the flames. Because trust me in this, you have just added to the problem. Squaw is now one step further away from being just another word. Every person who reads this and every person who reads what you wrote and knows that it is not just another word is another person lost. Awareness is all well and good for a rare disease, but not so well and good for a rare cussword. I would be happy if in 100 years my children's children's children were calling each other nigger and it meant absolutely nothing. Well okay only half-happy. I'd be happy if they understood why all forms of bigotry are supremely stupid and used it because nigger became what it is - just another word.

I believe the muscles in my shoulder have become so knoted that the skin directly over them is going numb because the nerves are squeezed so tight. Hmm suck.

On other notes I called my credit card company about the cards on my card that I never said my old membership could do. They are sending me forms. I called the gym again and they said what they did was perfectly legal, and by the way send them 70 more dollars. I don't want to deal with it. I just don't. What they did BTW was keep entering experation numbers in when my card switched until they got one that worked. They said that their billing place called my card company and got the experation date from them and that was prefectly legal. I haven't a clue really how accurate it all is. I'm sure I'll probably have to pay the 70$ but I just don't want to deal with it now. I should, but I just don't want to. I want to go home and play Sims with Seasons and do my homework at some point. This place is very dead. I think I'm going home early.

1) Sleep an ungodly amount and do no school work (check)
2) Wake up early take nice long shower (check)
3) Write up a map and list for Jeff and Katie to hit the asian market in Albany (check)
4) Get Lunch together (check)
5) Put Lunch in school bag
6) Take School bag and go to work (check)


Yes your eyes do not lie. I did indeed forget my damned lunch for work. I haven't a clue where I've left it. I think I left it in the sewing room. If the dog eats it he will die. Oh well I have snacks at work so it isn't a huge deal if no one drag it here for me. Crap I just remembered I forgot my other knife at home too. Oh and wait it gets better I also forgot I am cashless so I have no way of getting quarters to put in the parking meter. Fuck fuck, fuckity fuck fuck

Got an email back from D-boy. He gave me an address at which I can send him letters and stuff. I have decided to send him a package of things. I have as yet no idea quite what I want to send and I am online doing research as to whats a good idea. It is amazingly complicated. Grr how annoying. Anyhow yes stuff.